sup brohams

my other blog doesnt want to work

Tue, 14 Aug 2007 15:22:36 GMT

ive got work in an hour
i dont want to do it

but whatevs
yesterday was really chill
like i didnt have any responsability to do shit

i went into town
-checked for tips at work
-there was no tips

i went to the mall on the bus
- i met this guy on the bus
- hes new in nyack so we figured wed hang out
-i got to the mall
-i got a haircut
--you cant even tell, i just got layers
-i met back up with the guy from the bus

we went back into town and smoked.
and all was chill
and it continued till 10
and i went home
and slept
and all in all it was very relaxing

Sun, 12 Aug 2007 09:57:14 GMT

i have never before written a top 5 list of people i hate
until about 3 minutes ago

i feel like nixon

its a nice list though,
very well rounded
and backed up.

its almost beautiful

Sun, 12 Aug 2007 09:50:44 GMT

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Fri, 22 Jun 2007 13:06:02 GMT

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hey kiddies

Sun, 13 May 2007 14:21:18 GMT

has anyone been reading my blog lately.

no.
nobody
because nobody knows where the fuck it is

but ill tell you

www.bertrude.blogspot.com

Sun, 28 Jan 2007 14:58:15 GMT

1) im sick of being the girl in school that everyone thinks has no friends. i cant help the fact that everyone that goes to nyack is a complete douchebag. if all my friends have graduated that so be it. dont ever say they dont exist. ever again. because i will hit you.

2) stop lying through your nose about every little thing. its obvious

3) when she was away i didnt have to look over my shoulder every 5 seconds. and now shes back. and i do all over again.

4) i have never felt so much like i belong then i do with you guys. i feel embarrased when i say that your my best freinds (when you can hear it) because i think you might find me clingy. but you are. so deal with it. :)

5) nothing you do will ever offend me. all i ask is that you dont take things i do so personally in return.

6) please dont wear those huge glasses anymore. you look like a pedophile.

7) thankyou so much for being the one girl i know who doesnt always blow everything out of proportion.

8) i wish i could tell you i dont really want to be with you. i just dont want to hurt your feelings

9) i wish everyone could just swallow their pride and do something interesting. its ok to go to a party where you only know one person. meeting new people is healthy. so dont hold me back.

10) stop assuming i only hang out with guys so i can hook up with them. i hang out with guyrs because of girls like you who cant just deal with the way i do things. honestly. its not hurting you. its not hurting me. deal with the fact i like being the only girl in a group of guys.

to be honest

Wed, 27 Dec 2006 03:49:19 GMT

my christmas kida sucked.

and ive already bitched about it
on myspace.
and to a couple people

but ive never felt so much like shit
since 7th grade.

so dont even tell me.
that my life is great
and that im popular
because obviously i dont mean half as much to anyone as i wish i did.

Thu, 30 Nov 2006 22:46:13 GMT

so im not posting to this anymore
obviously.
redirected.

check this
http://bertrude.blogspot.com/

it has photos any everything
i just find it easier.
and its pretty
:-)

Sun, 12 Nov 2006 16:39:38 GMT

so im watching cruel intentions.
in my pjs.

i ACHE from partying all weekend
hahahaha
its fucking sunday.

but anyway.

this weekend.

has been pretty much the craziest.

i have had continual hangover
and thats ok

so cruel intentions is such a good movie
its bad how i can relate to half the characters.

o dear

Thu, 09 Nov 2006 02:14:14 GMT

so my mom is freaking
heres a story
i went to pay for a review book for school
i needed some money
my mom gave me the money
my mom expected change.
so i payed for the book
i got change.
being in nyack of course i got pick pocketed.
and the books havnt come yet
so my mom comes home.
and shes like
do you have my change.
and i didnt. of course.
and shes like
how do i know you were even buying books for school
and of course i couldnt prove it because the books havnt come yet.

so everything is just bad timing.

and i had to vent.
im done.

ive figured it out

Sun, 05 Nov 2006 15:32:02 GMT

turiellos at midnight with an old friend. is my favorite thing to do.

Fri, 03 Nov 2006 19:29:01 GMT

yes.
ive been deleting comments.
because honestly. nothing you say will make me change.
especially if its anonymous.
why should i listen if your not going to tell me straight up.
thats all i have to say

Mon, 30 Oct 2006 04:35:30 GMT

so my myspace was hacked about an hour ago
this was honestly the funiest thing ive ever seen on myspace.
thanks

Sun, 29 Oct 2006 14:14:54 GMT

ok so this will be my third post of today.
becuase im bored.
and i have nothing better to do.
i want to go out and do something.
but i cant.
and it kills me. on the inside.
i need a new computer keyboard.
because the keys stick.
and they spell things wrong.
i honestly have no clue whats going on right now
everything is confusing.
especially boys.
but hoenstly.
who really gives a fuck.
nobody i know.
but thats a-ok.
so i havnt gotten a good comment in a long time.
nor have i seen where my english project is going.
i should have started that like. a week ago
i just need to get out and take pictures
it seems so easy.

jesus christ.
im hungry
but i dont know what for.
and its just frustrating
you know what i mean.
i know you do.

about. [www.gofugyourself.com] pretty much making my life right now.

Sun, 29 Oct 2006 14:01:02 GMT

so last night was good.
good bands.
i guess.
and good people in general.
a good ride home.
a few good words for new friends.
and im happy.
because i finally feel like i fit in.
as cliche as it is.

to be honest i ve always felt like that with everyone
until now.
and im happy.

and guess what yallzz.
im getting the cable back on wednesday.
for 3 years i didnt have cable.
and im getting it back
hoorah.

but i have to babysit today.
all day.
which kinda sucks.
because its sunday.
oh well.

Sun, 29 Oct 2006 04:43:53 GMT

its nights like this i collapse on my bed
and all i can feel is my boots hurting my feet like you wouldnt believe.
and all i can taste is cigarettes on my breath.
and how my hair is a mess
and my eyeliners halfway down my face.
and its 12:30 and im an hour past curfew.
and i look terrible.
and i feel terrible.
but im exactly where i want to be.
and im happy.

[so suck it]

Sun, 22 Oct 2006 15:41:57 GMT

so i realized i havnt posted obnoxious pictures in a while
so these could date back a week weeks.
theres a shitload. so have fun.

yes. i can do cuts. i win.

gsa table at the back to school night. me and bex made brownies. and cookies. we own.

pink lemonade?!?!?!

we're getting married.
your not invited to the reception. srykthnxbi ;-)

they were supposed to be coming out of a big black vagina. really. dont ask.

dinosaur placemats.
cus bizzles awesome.

i was supposed to send this to him a couple weeks ago.
shit.

frank and rashad from last night. and a jigglypuff. cus thats how we do.

[how we do]

notice the drunken mass in mikes lap,
yes. thats MY beautiful face
and dmitry of course.

i dont know this girl
all i know is she showed her tits.

fikus makes the world go round

fikus makes EVERYTHING go round

brian milligram being sexytastic

theres a lizard on my veloceraptor

ppfffttt school spirit

this is what we do in chem. we explode pickles.

my crew

more of my crew.

we're beautiful. dont even deny it.

waiting for the bus. what else.

the bear!!

i can't lie. i love my gym class.

chems god.
the end.

so last night

Sun, 22 Oct 2006 13:49:14 GMT

was pretty much amazing.

and it pulled me straight out of my bad mood

see i get depressed easy. but its just as easy to get me out of it.

and i realized all i needed was some fikus, some boozing, and some pearl river.
which is now my new favorite town.
which irionic
cus pearl river kinda sucks

but seriously. last nights show was so amazing.

and i have to go walk and get my brother at 10. so out.

Sat, 21 Oct 2006 14:21:22 GMT

i have to go shopping for a haloween costume today
im so indecisive.
and i know ill pick something really slutty withut realizing.
and i have to take my brother trick or treating.
fun fun fun.
i want to go to parties
does anyone know of any good ones?

annyway.
im bored.
and its saturday morning.
ive been sleeping better lately
as in 5 hours instead of 3.
so im feelin pretty dandy right now.

i need boys to not be so confusing.

Thu, 19 Oct 2006 23:38:27 GMT

so i feel like i did in 7th grade again. and by that i mean horribly depressed.
and i dont mean angsty teen depressed or the kind of depressed when you just whine to your friends about how your going nowhere. i mean the depressed -vomiting-hairfallingout-nausea-shakeyness-tearsfornoreason- kind of depressed.

and i dont know why.
i know i have it better than so many people theoretically. why do such things get to me.

so for now im just dealing with being a 3rd wheel.
its better than nothing.

the best i can do is fill this weekend with mind numbing drugs and the such.
speaking of. whose going to be at the south bonfire tomorow night.
cus ill be.
including numbing drugs and boozing.

im looking forward to it.

and i want to go winter shopping.
for winter clothes.
cus im already freezing my ass off.
which means i have to get a job.
eventually.

livejournal is for whining.

a couple thingspeople ought to know

Mon, 16 Oct 2006 19:49:53 GMT

ok so being at a dance and having noone to dance with sucks
also being trashed with nobodies shoulder to rest on, sucks
not being able to slowdance with anyone. sucks.

but anyway. it could have been much worse.
good friends own.

so a couple things

fist of all . i absolutely adore my hair.
contrary to what everyone thinks, i love its leangth, texture, color, everything
i love the way it looks stupid and faded and two tone.
it makes me confident.
so when i say i hate my hair. dont listen.

i love my fashion sense.
i love my friends
i hate how all my friends are out of school
i hate how i only hang out with boys mostly.
i hate how chirstmas is coming. and i know ill give everyone gifts and not get any in return.
i hate how my mail blinker is going off even tho i just checked my email and theres nothing there.
i love not having to go to school because i was borderline sick.
i love working at the backdoor
i hate working at the backdoor.
i hate how i just fell asleep in the bath tub
i love my mom coming through the door just to say how i type wierd and loudly.
i hate knowing that by english standards im the fat one.
i love knowing its ok. because america owns the ratio.
i love www.gofugyourself.com and the superficial. because they make me feel better im not famous
i love knowing nobody is even reading this.
i love planning going to europe with matt davidowcs in 3 years

:-)

Sat, 14 Oct 2006 15:24:21 GMT

im sick of making new friends
i have all the friends i need.
im sick of trying so hard for a boy who wont return the favor
boys dont last forever.
im sick of not getting the regognition i should for doing my job
i dont work hard enough.
im sick of knowing my reputation is shit.
im sick of knowing im slacking.
im sick of people who think theyr too cool
im sick of every guy that goes to nyack high school
im sick of trying so hard to look pretty when everyday i look exactly the same
im sick of people cancelling their plans.
im sick of people who havnt called me in months
im sick of knowing i cant start over no matter how hard i try.
im sick of drama and gossip.
im sick of my OWN FRIENDS talking shit about me behind my back.
im sick of my friends not caring about how much i actually need them
im sick of my friends traating me like a 3rd wheel.
im sick of my friends making looks at eachother because im around
im sick of my friends not realizing how alienated i feel.

Mon, 09 Oct 2006 14:37:42 GMT

so im awake at 8 in the morning.
and im pretty much just waiting for zena to wake up.
that always happens.
i wake up too damned early.
i should not be able to run on 4 hours of sleep
but im fine anyway.
maybe im bionic.

so i dont know whats happening today
i think im partying with my boy.
but i dont know.
i think hes annoyed i didnt call him yesterday
cus honestly im the most absentminded person i know.
cusa yesterday was so hectic

this whole weekend has been

friday
-i went to the mall for the boy.
-i had to leave at like 8. cus i had to babysit.

saturday
-i went to tarrytown
-we kinda just waited around
-we went on alot of walks
-and fell asleep in the park
-it was very cute
-then we got baked.
-and then i woke up in my bed.
-and i dont know how that happened.

sunday
-i went to the streetfair and i helped tracy with face painting
-im very bad at commiting to things im not part of so i kinda left once or twice, for many many hours.
-i saw ryan and went weith him for a while
-and then bizzle came
-and then bizzle left
-and i went back to the face painting thingy
-i ate 6 bowls of pad thia.
-6 <---
-then i saw matt dizzine
-we went to the park.
-we came back from the park
-we went back to the park. with the bear.
-in your face backdoor.
-i learnt his real name.
-i came back to the streetfair. it was pretty much closed.
-so i hung out on the street for an hour. with big old pete.
-then i went to the mall with zoe
-i watched her get her nails done. which was actually quite fascinating.
-zoe thinks im a deprived child. cus ive never gotten my nails done, or my eyebrows waxed.
-so then we went to opus and watched rent
-it made me cry.
-zoe came up with the idea of a yiddish campfire cafe
-were building a firepit in the backyard.
-then zena came. and we had a dance party
-well they had a dance party.
-i chose not to partake in the dancing
-so then we saw a bunch of people. like. alex and rashad and dani and karl and dimitri and a bunch of people
-so we went to get the bus
-and they came down to meet us
-and decided they were meeting us in nyack
-and we sat on a streetcorner and made alot of noise.
-so then we waited for john manogue.
-who never came.
-so we pretty much stayed up intul ike.. 3 in the morning. with crackhead talk. it was entertaining.
-we listed all the boys in our school who we think are cute.
-cus thats what teenage girls do.

the end.

Sun, 08 Oct 2006 14:35:20 GMT

screw ljcuts
;-]

gross

Thu, 05 Oct 2006 16:34:10 GMT

im sick,
it kinda sucks.
i really hope im not sick tomorrow.
cus i have to see my boy right now.
i think im going to go downstairs soo and have some chicken soup

i actually went back to sleep for a good 5 and a half hours.
cus usually i go to sleep for an hour
and i read or soething the rest of the day
which is what i get for being on the phone till 1.

my nose is blocked up.
and i hate that.
its like not even painful its just annoying,
and my eyes hurt.
and i have to stop chewing on the inside of my cheaks.

grrrrrrr...
so i cant wait to go to tarrytown this weekend.
i dont even care whats there
i just need to get the fuck out of nyack
and rockland county.
this side of the river kinda blows.

so i pretty much lost all my good teddybears
to my brother.
so now i have nothing to snuggle up to.
which kinda sucks when your sick
so im like. grrrr.

yeah.
convoluted entrys
are always the best kind